Sianifornication, Sianism, Sianified, Sianabolism, Sianily, Sianed, Sianing, Sianalistic, Siannation, Sianised

I think sometimes one has to just stop and reflect back on what happened so far in his life. This is in reference of my thonning days. Its been brutal on myself man. I'll emphasize on the point further on, for now lets start on 1 July 05.
As usual, me, jj, jy, aug, iz, boo, ray, john went to msia. It was going normal, until i decided to leave early. Without the whole gang there, it just felt empty. In fact things have been becoming emptier and emptier ever since the fateful day. Dunno why but everything just seems so plasticated nowadays. As ol' joe puts it, Plasticated Elegancia. Anyways i left early to go back to spore. Just missed the fking bus so i stood at Kranji MRT like a dumbass for bout like 20 mins. I decided to take the cab in fear of the midnight surcharge. Fking bad mistake. 1 sec after the taxi pulled away from the bus stop, my bus came. Pissed 'r' us. Worse still the godammed taxi driver had breathing difficulties and kept snivelling in the journey. Whats more he takes all the long way around, to suck me dry of my moolah. I decided to drop off at lok's place. The whole fare was 10 bucks. Sad. So i slept on lok's cold hard marble floor after showering. Wore my fking pants i left there years ago and the sch pe shirt. Havent thonned at loks for a months man. Nostalgic. Anyways decided to puff up n be a gentleman n entertain adri for her net was down. In the end e conversation trailed to MCM vs FSV ppl. Sensitive issue, it is. So talked until she was tired so e conversation was killed and i slept.
Woke at ard 3pm to read joe's msg on going to expo to see cars n cho jap gals. I agreed. Wiseass. Watched eqibiliurm at lok's before leaving. Its a matrix spin off la. Just like possessed being a excorist spin off. So anyways i took a bus to buona vista den train to city hall. Talk about freedom. Met joe, drank at starbucks, chilled. My luck has been dwindling since the beginning of 2005. I cldn't buy drinks, drink machine didnt acc me coins. Maybe this is a sign that my love life is gonna become better? Haha wtf am i saying i'm just denying myself the truth. I'm losing luck, losing power. Went to expo, took many many pics of cars n cho gals. Visual Orgasm i says. Got a call from Aug to watch war o e worlds. Agreed again. Dragged joe along. Being a wiseass again, i am. Believe it or not in 2 days i spent 100 bucks. I shall really watch the money spending man. Not good, not good at all. Anyways chilled for 3 hrs at starbucks opposite lido. Sian eh. Walked to cine from there at 11:15, smoked in mandarin hotel. So uber Japan man. Smoking pls! Yea, and talked to Joe all e way. Interesting fella. Joom in Joom out vtr, yadayadayada. Watched WotW. Cool movie, interesting events. For me, someone who never read the novel nor heard the thingy and not knowing the ending, it was pretty much cool. I like. Yes and after that we chilled at Long John's. Iz sent adri off as usual, leaving me n joe n aug n jy. I went perfectly mad, mimicking tintin. By Jove! Golly! Snowy! Blistering Barnacles! Blabla. I got high drinking coffee. WOW! Yea, sure.
Suddenly i was attacked by a qns by jy. Twas painful, that qns. It was "Atsuri mada suki desuka?" My 4am drug induced brain's first reaction was "Che. Touzen Jya. Maji de sou desu. Watashi baka desu kedo, demo, sore wa hontou no koto desu. Watashi wakaru jibun hanashimasu no mono- Ore wa ore no damasu, koto naku ikiteyuku.. demo.. ima wa zen zen chigau no koto. Muzukashi no koto desu. Itai desu kedosa, demo kore wa watashi no inochi. Zutto onaji. Dakara zannen. Koibito dame. Itsu mo onaji. Doshite? Watashi wakaru, moshi watashi kare o wasureta sore wa ii desu, demo, yasashi jya nai. Kusou. Hontoni daisuki yo, ano kanojo. Doshite kare watashi kirai desuka? Ryu wa watashi wa totemo suugoi? Oba ii? Nonsense i shd say. Che." but I decided to totally avoid that qns for it was the catalyst for the uberly DIU mode. Thank god i did, for i think the great depression shall evolve into the gargentuan depression. I shall delve into this point. Why i keep quiet and zip me mouth. This is simply because i'm being the world's number one bastard. To shut up is to cause no troubles. Not talking hurts me till thy kingdom come, drives people up the wall, is loserly, but it has to be done for the good cause of many many people. I think its better for me to just shut up and watch how things go rather den open my big mouth and say some unnessecary stuff. Weird though i think everyone's happier with me silent for once. I make myself invisible and i think ppl somehow or rather prefer it that way. Oh wells. Always kanna pang seh, will get used to it. Nothing's new. Always being number 3, 5, 7, 9. The odd one out. Grps of 2 will talk, leaving the quiet boy alone. Haha.. Come to think of it, i can talk, but it'll just be shit language. Shit language is as described- No sense, unfunny, lame, dumbass, wiseass, cock n bull, bollocks and bullshit, small talk. I just feel as if i cant crack anymore sensible jokes. Like i ever did. Ugh. Another thing i find is that it's been better ever since i just kept to myself. Thoughts running rampant around in my head just settle down in my brain and rot, which is good. Beginning to forget. Pain's lesser as days go by. Forcibly making myself immune to this kinda pain is making it worse. Ironic isn't it. Although i brought this misery upon myself. Lucky Aki? Bullshit. No luck for this old dog no more i have used it all up. Uh huh. Looks like people are gonna be pissed at me for saying the whole sentence like this and coding some in jap, but.. yea.. yea balld. Anyways to a lighter note. Chilled for awhiles. Jy n Aug left early, leaving me n joe. We decided to be miserly and follow Mr Mao ZeDong's Long March. Walked from cine all the way to Rendevous n chilled. Rendevous at 5-6 am ain't rendezvous. Its a manual labor driven Sluts 'r' us. Bus came and took it back home. Here i am back again at this time. I think my life is pretty much fked up for now. Bums 'r' us. Sue me.