Mysterious Shitified Attack.

I find it quite weird sometimes when everything in life is going at a steady and normal pace but all of a sudden i get a super low, sad, lonely, SHITIFIED feeling out of the blue, for no apparant reason at all. Do i have PMS now? Interesting. I think one day i shall stop acting retarded and spastic and funny and just become another normal guy who is old and matured. Start to behave my age, drop the charade of acting like a bloody kid. Its not getting me anywhere. All it creates is laughter, nothing else. No good comes out of it. I think its high time i just became 19 and not 16. Yea. I think i need a girlfriend. HAHAHAHHA Who the fuck am i kidding fuck! Right now at this stage of advanced cheism i dun think so. Woohoo i get headaches just thinking about girls now. Wad a waste of good time n good money and good loving. Wad's e use of loving and not being loved in return? No use i says. Its just sad la. I guess thats the summary of my sad state right now. Its weird how it started. The day was ok, but as i lied on my floor and started reflecting, i got super sad n heavy hearted. No idea why also but its brutally painful. Even more so den being crushed alive. I think this mood cld stay with me until next month, its quite extremely brutal. And as a side note jor grew balls a lot. I think he just wanna get a gf like me. HAHHAHA. UTTER NONSENSE I SAY HEART PAIN AND DEPRESSION ONLY MR JOE.