New Year

Spent new year wif ppl, some i dunno, some i know, which i am lazy to think, cuz i feel like shit now. I can officially say i puked for a year cuz when ppl was counting down, i was like puking in the sink wif lok. After the new year thingy everyone who stayed got stone blasted drunk except me who cured, lok n izzy n john. n shan's frens, most of em. well.. some of em. Zul n lok stayed. My house. Today, on 1st Jan, i really really felt bad. Puked teh ping n prata. Without alcohol. Juz felt sick. Why am i so sick in the new year? Its probably the withdrawal i suppose. Damn really feel pathetic again. Its the time of the year i suppose. Shouldnt have started smoking. Shouldnt have said things i should have not. Shouldn't get wrong ideas. Shouldn't think so much. Shouldnt eat so much. Shouldn't spend so much. Shouldn't think of a certain thing too much.

In general. I am sick. Withdrawal, constant cold turkeys. Lucky lok is always here for me. Heh. Heartbroken, but i aint suppossed to think of this. My body gets more hurt, not physically but internally. Inside. Pain. Control. Pathetic Aki. Same old lines i used before. Shouldnt think this way. But for now, it is inevitable. Getting over it? Dunno. Maybe. Headaches. Sleepless nights. Workload piling. Class disputes over certain issues. Last minute workload. No one to share these shit. Tiring. Tired. Sleepy. No rest for the wicked. No rest for me. Work. Now. Cya all.

Tired. Aki.