Down and out

I am feeling as though the world has just stopped. Without school, i dun get to see my mates anymore. No mates, no fun. And i've been kinda on the edge of life now.. just today i was supposed to meet mail and sophia, her bf, his fren, and val at sentosa ard 11. but i reached there like ard 4, cuz i was so damn lazy.. val juz dun seem wad she was few years back. So i'm petty aki huh. oh well. And i sincerely apologise to terence for saying forum, without specifying tanglin. man. Basically gave a black face to everyone today, didn't enjoy my time. maybe i'm selfish, but a lil' selfishness makes an aki whole. so i ate n ate today. Watched ppl suffer eating some BIG ASS PIZZA and i pitited them and ate their food. They stared at me in awe and even saluted the amount of food i devoured on that day. Depression. Feels as though i am going away from my select grp of frens, but i suspect its because al ameen doesn't taste as.. nice as before. In e past, it tasted good... now, its like too many men spoil the bukake... too many outsiders. As i said, i may be selfish and bastardised, but if i'm not, then i won't be an aki anymore. I hope to change this mindset of mine and just continue living this fucked up life to the whole. Ohoh if i get expelled from school, then it'll be quite suay huh. :D why am i smiling? For i have finally snapped and have gone bonKERS. YAYyyyyyyyyyyyy!! So lets see, brief summary for aki, no crush, not looking, sad, pathetic, anti social, lonely, need company, canon contest ppl, full, unsatisfied, incomplete.