Unloved, Unliked, Hated, Loathed.

Mkay, i dun remember much that happened this past few weeks but i remember aquasky, green shirt zaogeng, indonesian ciggies, auditions, 4 uni students, learning do re mi on guitar, winning pool, cs, and stoning with the dudes daily till 12 am.

I am officially the Tycoest fuck in the world.. although this tycoest fuck in the world has absolutely no luck in love. I feel as though i am the type that can never get a girlfriend, and i wonder why? What is it with me that makes it so? Am i fugly? Yes. Am i lame n childish? Yes. Am i ungentlemanly and crude? Yes. Do i have bad habits? Yes. Sigh. That explains all. Stupid depression setting in like a sumo sitting on my back. Damn, i need a shirt that says i need a girlfriend and i need to walk around school wearing that. Surely ppl will find it funny and i can settle with the next best thing than getting a girlfriend.. Making ppl laugh.

I always wondered to myself why? Am i Unloved, Unliked, Hated, Loathed, Detested, Disliked, Abhored by girls? I seriously have no idea. Why man Why? Singlehood is great, but why now, why do i see couples together and get damn jealous and feel lonely all over again? Its like before sleeping, depression, wake up, body ache, depression, smoke, feel high, see couples, depression, go eat, see couples, depression, go home, see more couples, depression. Argh. i need a girlfriend. but i find it useless to keep telling that to myself even though i know that there's absolutely no girl in the world out there for me, perhaps maybe in china where brides are sold, but i mean man, this feeling sux to the core.. i shall end this blog off in a standstill. Will a girl ever come to love an Aki?

This resolves me to finally pick up the courage to tell "her" i love her, but i never see her, ever. HAIZ...